Are you my mother?

USMC    1,000,000,000 Courtney 0 Once again I got my hopes up about getting my husband to myself for a full 4 days (for an out of town wedding), and once again the Marine Corps wins this one. I don't even know why I continue to try to plan anything. I found out my plans were crushed two days ago and needed some cool off time. I know it is not J's fault. I know he doesn't say "please schedule me for my flights when my wife wants me to go out of town with her!!" but that knowledge doesn't make it sting any less.  Once again my life and everything I do revolves around his schedule. I cant have 4 days. FOUR FREAKING DAYS.  So what do I do? I will continue to go see movies by myself, eat dinner alone, be a single parent 6 days a week all while keeping a smile plastered on my brace face.

Cutie Pootie! :) Daddy and Andrew at the San Juan Mission Momma and Andrew Huge fan of the grass! :) I love this little pout-y face! :) I found this little monster standing in his crib for the first time last week. Sleepy Andrew boy The boys gettin in some cuddle time

My attitute. I had a great day with my bestie today full of Panera soup and painting pottery; just what I needed. I woke up grumpy due to my metal mouth and was in great need of some Kelapy (kelli therapy).  I can not say enough how greatful I am for my girl friends out here on the West Coast. I would most likely need to be medicated (haha-ish) if it wasnt for the talk therapy and burden sharing with my friends. My wise Kelli shared a few words of wisdom that I need to incorporate into my thinking. Expect less. Give more.  Four simple words. Simple words that can have a profound impact on how I choose to react to situations that are out of my control. It is of course, easy to to lose perspective.  I need to give more. I need to think of others first.  Such a simple concept and yet so hard to remember.

Why yes...I did just eat 6 fruit by the foot snacks. Why you ask; because tomorrow I once again join the brace-face club. For the next 10-12 months I can no longer eat "sticky" foods. Those fruit by the foot were the only things I could find in my house that are on the "do not eat" list, and as I do not have the car tonight I could not go and splurge on something I really wanted so the fbtfs would have to do. I can not say I am excited about once again having a mouth full of metal, but I am however looking forward to the end result.  I had braces when I was younger, and of course did not wear my retainers and my teeth have gotten progressivly worse over the years. It got to a point where I couldnt see anything else when I looked in the mirror so I decided it was time. I asked Joel if he had ever kissed anyone with braces...he said no. BAHAHAHA! :) Is he in for a treat!

 A friend of a friends thoughts on Memorial day and the true meaning it holds for her now. I do not know this woman personally; but hers is a situation I could one day be in myself and I could only hope to endure with such grace. For Chris: Remembering Memorial Day : I am ashamed to say that there was a time in my life that Memorial Day signaled the start of summer, the first weekend at the beach ...

Once again I eat dinner by myself watching The Big Bang Theory. I use diet coke and chocolate kisses to drown my loneliness. The only person I've talked to all day is the guy at the bike shop where I had my flat BOB tire fixed this afternoon.  Sometimes I wonder what the heck am I doing with my life? Oh that's right, drinking diet coke and eating chocolate while watching hilarious sitcom reruns. Do you hear that? It's my brain cells wasting away from lack of use; I must change this. I have so much free time, (after Andrew goes to sleep of course) I need to find something productive to do with it.

New snappy fresh look. Only took me FOREVER to find something I liked well enough to actually use. And who knows, I might decide I dont like it tomorrow. After all, I am a women. My likes/dislikes change daily. KEEP UP :) Also I am deeply saddened by the Greys finale. First, I loved Lexi! Second I have to wait till next season to know what the heck happens to all the rest of them! HATE THAT!