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Alone again

I am thankful for my husbands income. That he has a steady paycheck, and that my family has health insurance for which we pay next to nothing for. I appreciate our home, and everything in it. I adore my sweet baby boy, his smile melts my heart.
 I know what I am about to say may be selfish and ungrateful.

You know what, I wont do this again. I will not complain about things I can change, but choose not too.

I am currently listening to this song on repeat;

Carrying the weight on the end of a limb, youre just waiting for somebody to pick you up again. Shaded by a tree, cant live up to a rose;  all you ever wanted was a sunny place to grow.
Pretty little thing, sometimes you gotta look up and let the world see all the beauty that you're made of. 'Cuz the way you hang your head nobody can tell, you're my Virginia bluebell.

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  1. Hang in there, mama :( I'm sending mad internet hugs your way!

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