For the first time in a long time I rocked my baby before bedtime tonight. Usually I read him a book, tell him I love him and put him in bed and he goes to sleep on his own. He has done this since he was about 2 months old so I haven't rocked him a whole lot (at least not at bed time, he never liked it). Tonight, I read a book and laid him down and he cried and cried. I let him for a few minutes but then went in and picked him up. I got to rock him and sing to him for twenty minutes while he just laid his head on my chest and looked up at me, his little hand playing with the zipper on my sweatshirt. He hardly ever cries at bed time anymore, at least not enough that I need to go in and sooth him. I think my little boy knew that I needed that tonight. How wonderful it was, just to love and be loved. My sweet Andrew baby new his momma needed a hug. After about twenty minutes I laid him back down, he rolled to his side and cuddled his blanket like normal. I have a beautiful baby boy who reminds me how blessed I am everyday. You are my greatest gift; I love you Andrew Miles, to the moon and back.
I am grateful for you, Andrew. You are the tester of my ever dwindling patience, the giver of sloppy wet open-mouthed kisses. The destructor of my home, and master of unfolding laundry. No one else can melt my heart and simultaneously drive me mad. I can not say, sweet boy, how much I have grown since God blessed me with your life. Being your mother is not always easy; I am not perfect, but know that I will never work as hard to be at anything else. I hope I can be everything you need, I hope I can teach you to be a good man. I hope I can teach you to love others, have empathy for them, to embrace difference, but know who you are and where you are going. I hope I can instill in you a respect for your country, and the knowledge that you come from a line of American heros. Heros who were and are willing to sacrifice everything. I hope you live with passion, learn to embrace your trials. Be strong, in who you are and what you stan...
Darling post! I fully know babies are more in tune with our emotions than a lot of people realize. I think it is a gift from Heavenly Father. He can't be here all the time but our babies sure can! I am sending you an "e" hug!
ReplyDeleteSo precious :) NOTHING compares to the love you get from your kids. I love it!
ReplyDeleteThank you ladies! It was a rough day, and by bed time I was sooo ready for him to go down, but he knew I needed a little lovin first :)
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